Power of Prayer

     Do you think prayer is powerful? I'm going to be honest and say that my prayer life has not been what it was before. Sure. I pray every day.. but do I actually believe what I am saying or am I just saying/thinking about what I need help on. It is interesting to think I have a sincere heart when I pray for others, but when I pray for myself.. it has not been sincere. It has been more of I know God is great and has control.. but do I actually truly 100% believe that. Not 99.9%... 100%.
     I hate that I am not perfect. You know why? Because that means I always need help. I feel like I am useless. Not worth anything. Stupid. But you know what. That's okay haha. I do not need to be perfect because there is already One is who! Amen!
     Life has been hard psychologically for me. Making sure I will be able to graduate in time. Making sure I am doing well with my classes. Making sure I am showing Christ's love each day. Making sure I won't let what culture says dictate what I believe the Spirit has led me to choose or do. All this goes through my head each day. It is tiring. It probably has to do with I think how I should live my life A LOT. I guess that's good. But I have been learning that sometimes, I need to let things go and give it to God 100%. Like I have already looked to what I need to do to graduate, but I am still freaking out about it because of stories I have been hearing. I should not be worried about it though, because I cannot prevent what will happen. I do not know. God knows. Why can't I just seriously give it to him and move on.
     I also have been planning my life for, lets say, the next 3 years. I say to myself that I know this is what I want, and God is going to either open doors or close them. I have to be ready to accept that. That means.. I need Him. I need to talk to Him. I need Him. I said it again. I need God and I want to show that. I want God to use me in ways I can hardly imagine and just be in awe of His Power. I want to be able to pray for others BELIEVING and TRUSTING God will provide.I want to be able to do that for myself to.
     Today, I went with some friends to downtown Chicago and gave food to the homeless and shared with them about Christ's love and asked to pray with them or if they have any requests. It's easy to think.. if God has provided for them yet.. how is He going to.. especially if they are dress like that and whatnot. There's me not believing on what God can do. Today, I have not felt more sincere in my prayers for a while. I just wanted them to know that God does care.. I know it is hard in your situation and I do not know what they are going through.. but knowing Jesus and having faith He will get you out of it.. it can happen. God can use the people around for that.
     With today, I saw so many prayers answered. I had my heart truly yearning for God to work in people's lives. I want people to have the relationship I have with Him. It is SO HARD on days when I just want to sleep all day.. maybe it's the weather.
     Anyway, back the topic. The POWER of prayer! Do you truly 100% believe in it? Ask for it. Use it.