Comparing

     Why do I feel like I always compare myself with people? This is the question that is always coming up for me. The answer I feel like is simple: I am not fully satisfied with God. Then I go, yes I am! I'm having my God times.. trying to listen to Him. Waiting for His time.. and struggling with that but I know I will gain perseverance in Him. James 1:2-4 is the verse that is constantly coming to me, along with Jeremiah 29:11.. He knows my plans. Now, all our plans are not going to be the same. Everyone is unique. My plans are not going to be the same as my friend's plan. This is what I am struggling to keep strong in thinking. 

      Struggling is hard.. especially when the answers seem so easy. Struggling is not easy. It's not fun. But just know, there is light in the end. God is going to come back. Everything will be good eventually. Nothing is going to matter besides Him. 

      Now, take one day at a time. Know He is good and great. Know everything will fall into place eventually. My life is not falling apart, it's falling into place.

More Time

      It's getting to that time of the semester where things are getting crazy and picking up. I realize today that I wish I had more time. More time to be able to just sit and have a Jesus date. Fall more in love with Him. Instead of worrying about what I have to do with a class, making sure things get turned in, meetings, eating, and you know, just regular things. I get so drained from my day that I just want to curl up in my bed and sleep my worries away and just be like.. Okay.. Jesus. You know what's up.
     I have been disciplined in thinking each day on what God wants me to do for His glory. So I go on prayer walks most of the time and then I keep on going about my day. I realize today though.. I need to make time for myself to have God and I time. Not God and other people time. God and I time. Like not once a week or twice a week. Everyday. Why? Because I am in love with God. He needs to be number one.
     Ned and I are reading through the whole Bible this year. I confess that some days.. I let that be my God and I time. Now.. this is just my conviction. God is a jealous God and desires my attention. Yet, I don't give it to Him some days.
     Jesus is my friend.. "No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you." (John 15:15)
-That is Jesus talking over there by the way.

     Anyways, I am making it a goal for me this week to find time this week for some God and I time so that I can learn from Him, be sustained by Him, and know that He is ENOUGH. I definitely need this intimate time with Him this week and I am so happy I am yearning for it! 
     By the way, don't get me wrong, I don't think it is bad to have God, other people, and yourself time.. It builds up community. But I do think it is harmful in your relationship to God if that is the only time you spend time with God. It's like.. getting to know a person 1 on 1 versus with other people in the room. It can work.. or it can't.

Have a great week this week and find that time to spend time with God to get to know Him more!